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Triggered: Bad At Love
I Love Halsey
I had heard of Halsey before I actually saw a picture of the artist. I usually listen only to rap, however, a girlfriend said I had to listen to this song. Bad At Love. I obliged and thought wow, not only did I love her voice but the lyrics spoke to me.
Of course, my girlfriend is now an ex, ’cause you know, I’m not just bad at love, I suck at it. A few months pass and the almighty algorithm brings the song and artist to my YouTube feed.
When I first saw the video, I thought, she reminds me of someone. However, I would come to realize that in this particular video, her hair is blonde.
It really bothered me and I couldn’t understand why I’m feel this overwhelming feeling of loss and sadness. I go further down the page and see the Halsey & Kelsea Ballerini Crossroads video. She is now a brunette and the fog begins to lift.
The pair speak about their friendship and when I hear Halsey’s speaking voice. I’m immediately triggered, propelled 25 years back in time. Thoughts of my “work wife” Rachel, who is Halsey’s doppelganger, flood my emotions.
The flawless skin tone, their slicked-back short haircut, and the sweet, husky, gravely city girl accent. Their small stature but bigger than life presence. Rachel’s eyes and Halsey’s lips. Halsey is Rachel, Rachel is…
